Krishna Dharajiya Journey towards higher self is not for the faint-heart. Spiritual awakening and depression have always been mutually connected. Its a process of becoming conscious of your vibrational existence. Every spiritual being faces depression on exploration towards self-consciousness – unwillingly and unknowingly…! If you feel isolated or disconnected these days, you’re not insane.. You are just waking up…!
Mother earth is shifting to higher dimension and we are progressing towards different frequencies. As a part of the process, human consciousness is expanding. The more you adjust to new vibrations, the more are the chances of healthy survival.
Spiritual wake up concealed under depression
Awakening is often accompanied by intense emotions of instability and discomfort. You face severe instances of being into blues and melancholy. There is no joy no happiness no motivation. You are stuck in disharmony no matter how hard you try to balance things out. There is a constant feeling of being avoided and everything around seems uncertain. Life is shifting and you go through rapid changes that are out of your own control. New issues flare up out of nowhere. Your existence becomes unpredictable which makes you go crazy. If you are experiencing these… RELAX..! It’s usual and common…!
Signs of Spiritual Awakening
**Metamorphosis**
Your body goes through conspicuous changes. There is a process of disintegration and reintegration. You may feel hormonal changes. Your skin starts getting dark due to the rewiring your body is going through. These all happens due to the shift in your personal frequencies. The hidden blues erupt out of massive vibrational shift in your body. You struggle keeping up with your daily routine and there are feelings of burnout that haunts your energy level. These adds to your depression. But such changes are worthwhile and essential for your body.
**Bouts of depression forces you to go within**
Spiritual awakening raises your frequency from within. You are ultimately becoming conscious of your vibrational mechanism and you find lot of melancholia coming out of you as your core vibration is heightening. It pushes the past traumas, hurts and emotions. It expels the energy out of you. This purging process is accompanied by depressing mood. That’s why you always feel disconnected, lost and hopeless. You approach everyone, almost everywhere to find answers but fail to find them – As now is the time to dive with in…!
**Your consciousness gets wider**
Your perception and sense of self changes heavily. There is a shift inside out. This change is so quick that you barely can keep up in your physical world. During ascension, your consciousness starts expanding. As a result you see more of the present moment. You become more aware of how life turned onto you until this moment without your concerns and ideas. You get a sense of differentiating good from bad and vice versa.
**Self Realization**
You start asking question to self: Who am I? You start to realize that you are not the gender or an ethnicity, these are all man made restrictions. The world is not exactly how it seems. The dormant is becoming alive. It’s time for wake up – I am not made for day in and day out. There’s much more than my physical existence. You are yourself a mini universe. When you realize this, that’s the exact moment of your awakening.
**Mundane World**
Your friends, family relations don’t care about you now. You are stuck in these negative aspects which causes a natural reaction of being depressed. Its more messed up and broken than you ever realized. You have new ideal for self and vision for how your life could be. You get such a great clarity and this is quiet depressing as well.
**You realize that everything that was taught to you was a lie**
You realize that most of what that has been taught to you in school or at home is a complete lie. Many times you feel you don’t have to fit in the society. You don’t have to. Awakening brings the more authentic version of yours to the fore. The more raw, the more transparent one..!
**You start connecting dots**
You suddenly find the missing piece of the puzzle. You start connecting dots. If this is happening here, that is happening there. You find that everything that we have or receive is part of our thought process. You realize quickly that nothing in your life has had happened by chance. There were hidden reasons behind everything which you were subconsciously blind to till date.
**You realize the role of ego self in your life till date**
We are all energy in human form. We are much more than this body. The only thing that’s keeping us apart is our ego. You soon realize how the ego has kept you stuck in cycles of apprehensions and social stigmas. Your ego self starts shedding off. Every role played in life by the ego becomes fake to you.
**You become aware of thoughts and emotions of self and others**
You actually become aware of your emotions, how they affect you, your health, your mood, your attitude and how they affect your reality. Every day you choose to be happy now. Its all about peace, love and harmony.. right here at the moment….! And its healthy when you choose to be that way. Now you are freeing yourself from unwanted emotions, raising your consciousness.
**You See Oneness in Everything**
You start experiencing deeper interconnection in everything. You are gonna keep expanding. The barrier between you and the universe is dissolving. You are connecting to divine. Your life will now reflect the aftereffects of this new association. Beyond the process of making this connection is depressing. But that will seem okay to you.
**You get drawn to a Specific Role or Mission in Life**
No matter what profession or career you have been into until, you are attracted to a peculiar role or life mission to follow ahead. You now realize how the life has had been training you for the ultimate purpose of your soul. You realize why you are unique and you start embracing your individuality as you now know the world needs you in exactly the way you are.
**Number and Synchronicity**
You see repeating numbers 1111 77 22 333 55 etc. Everybody sees this number but now you are noticing it due to synchronicity. 1111 is a gateway to awakening. Synchronicity happens when your thoughts align with your life and start manifesting as experiences. You experience everything in alignment because you are now more conscious and now you are more aware of everything around you. THERE ARE NO ACCIDENTS OR COINCIDENCES IN THIS UNIVERSE. EVERYTHING HAPPENS IN DIVINE RIGHT ORDER.
**Change in Diet and other Choices**
Your diets switch and turn into more plant based diet. You realize the mechanism of food into your body – What we eat is what we become. You stop putting garbage into stomach. Suddenly you start respecting other living beings as part of the co-existence. Your food starts showing effects to you at subtle level and you are able to feel the difference now through your after meal moods. THAT’S HUGE SIGN OF SPIRITUAL AWAKENING.
**Compassion and Empathy**
Spiritual awakening makes you more compassionate, empathetic and loving. You become more psychic and conscious, but that comes at later stage. You develop tremendous amount of empathy and compassion. THIS IS THE KEY SIGN OF SPIRITUAL AWAKENING. You crave to help others. Humanity becomes your fuel now. Nobody is better than anybody else. We are just unique creation of realm and tiny part of the whole.
How to cope up with spiritual depression
See this whole process as part of growth and evolution. Allow it to come outside of you. Be neutral to it. Don’t get taken over by the emotions. Never own it. Don’t view it as you are depressed. Rather see it as that you are now aware about these emotions expelling out of you.
Don’t escape. Give yourself some time alone. Be with yourself purely. No need to be in rush to do everything. Do exercises. Feel Mother nature. Do something nice for someone, small kind humanistic and altruistic gestures, stretching and meditation or yoga.
Takeaway
Your depression is a valuable tool because awakening is an inside job. There’s no book, mentor or guide out there that can make you awakened. It’s you who have to come with in. Even if it feel crap right now, you should be happy because what is ahead of you is out of your imagination. When you are depressed don’t judge as it is bad or you are doing something bad. Its not going to last forever. Have faith in Universe. The process does end. It always does…!
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Love & Light
Krishna
